By Maria Erokhina
“My mother was only 13 years old when I was born,” Jordan shared. She was adopted on the eighth day of her life, a gift and a promise to her new parents. They named her Jordan, after the river that the Israelites had to cross to enter the Promise Land. Her name became a reminder of God’s faithfulness to His promises.
Jordan, an African-American girl, grew up in a good Christian home in a Caucasian family in a small town in Louisiana. She was the only child, and her parents poured out all their affection on her. Despite their unconditional love, she struggled with feelings of emptiness and rejection. She often asked herself, “Why did my mother give me up? Am I worthy to be loved? Do I belong here? After all, who am I?” She felt out of place, like a tiny piece of a giant puzzle that she couldn’t figure out.
For years, these thoughts were brewing inside of her, leading to rebellion in her teenage years. Jordan couldn’t wait to gain independence from her parents, and when she turned 17, she seized the opportunity to leave home and go to college. The worship band in her home church used to play songs from Christ For The Nations, and she had also heard many good things about their summer camp, Youth For The Nations. She ended up choosing to attend CFNI, and looking back she sees this was God’s direction, although she didn’t realize it at the time. As a confirmation of God’s involvement, Jordan was given the rare chance to receive an Urban Leader Scholarship that helped her to pay for CFNI.
In the fall of 2014, Jordan moved to CFNI, and a new chapter began in her life. God set her free from the orphan mentality and revealed to her who she was in Christ. She traces this revelation to the moment one of her teachers, Michael Massa, described the power of the blood of Christ. To illustrate how His blood covers us, he asked four students to hold the corners of a large red piece of fabric and to walk down the aisles of the classroom, so that the cloth hovered over the students sitting at desks between the aisles. That picture was etched in Jordan’s heart. “It became clear to me that it’s Jesus’ blood that makes me a child of God. I was astounded by that. I couldn’t get over it. I became fully aware that I am not an orphan anymore. I am a daughter of God!”
This was just the beginning. There was another Divine encounter waiting for Jordan at CFNI. Adam McCain, another CFNI teacher, spent time getting to know her. As he did, he realized that he had been the youth pastor in the church where her biological mother grew up. He remembered praying and speaking destiny over Jordan when she was still in her mother’s womb. The two were so amazed at how God had Divinely orchestrated their meeting, almost 20 years later, that they couldn’t hold back their tears. That moment God whispered to Jordan’s heart, “You are a promise from Me. And you will see all of My promises come to pass.” Suddenly, Jordan had a moment of clarity. Her life wasn’t an accident. Her conception, adoption and the family she grew up with were sovereignly ordained by God.
“You are a promise from Me. And you will see all of My promises come to pass.”
Then, last summer, her life came full circle. Jordan was able to meet her biological mother for the first time. “I’d been waiting for that moment my whole life, and it felt surreal, but it was like nothing I expected,” she said. Jordan was surprised to discover how much she had in common with her mother, and yet how different their lives were. She says, “I love my biological mom, but our meeting opened my eyes to appreciate the life God has given me and the family that raised me.”
It has been quite a journey of healing that God has taken Jordan on. He put the pieces of her life-puzzle together, giving Jordan assurance that He’d been there in every moment of her life. Jordan is graduating from CFNI in the spring of 2017. She dreams of going to the mission fi eld with her parents and plans to pursue further education. She also wants to reach youth, especially young girls, with the message of sexual purity and how valuable each person is to God. Jordan knows what it feels like to be an orphan, and through God’s Divine connections and healing truth, she is prepared to take the message of adoption to others throughout the world.
“If you are struggling with your identity as a child of God, I pray that you understand that you have been adopted into God’s family through the blood of Jesus Christ. No matter what you have done, nothing can hinder the Father’s love for you, no matter what you’ve gone through — His love remains constant.”
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